bad feelings post! nice!

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i decided to make a post after all talking abt feelings etc... lately i have been feeling rly lonely on twit like i'm left out and no one really wants to talk to me?? rationally i know that's not true but every time i open twit i feel like i've shown up to a party i wasn't invited to and it's super awkward n bad n yesterday was even worse bc v day. i'm tired of being alone all the time lol ! and i feel like i've been growing apart from bff which doesn't necessarily bother me bc i've felt that for a while i just feel like i'm doing them wrong by not trying harder ? idk. after all this time meme ppl seem to be the only ppl i feel truly comfortable with on twit n maybe it's bc we're still close even after changing fandoms n stuff. i mean not all meme ppl on my tlist lmfao but you know.. 

the ontd question in every post is my favorite meme so

have you ever gone to a party you weren't invited to, fastandslow?

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oh bff mentioned in this post is irl bff just to clarify

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i ttly understand you. thats how i felt before i took that long twit break. somehow twitter can really destroy your soul. its like always being surrounded by people but none of them give a fuck so its so damn lonely. now that i have my "new" account and i literally only have 4 real people following me its a lot nicer tbh. esp with 3 of them are people ive known for literal years lol. altho this is not really me recommending "CUT EVERYONE FROM YOUR LIFE!" or anything, just offering hope that....its possible to make twit a comfy place again if you want? i guess. OR AT LEAST: i know how you feel and i validate u and i will do my best to make sure you do not feel lonely by replying twice to every tweet. keke. who knew that meme would turn out to be a place of enduring friendships. altho for me its just you + min + my other friend, i lost touch with everyone else. OH AND SHEEP but she is not around much anymore on tumblr :(

ive never actually been invited to a party at all lmao. ok maybe like, two or three in HS but they were silly like birthday parties or lame graduation parties where the parents were still around supervising and stuff u know so not like PARTY parties. but i have also never gone to a party on my own volition either. but my social networks are a nonstop party and u are always invited.

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sheep still shows up on tumb occasionally but she's mostly idk doing irl stuff? what does she do idt she works or at least she didn't when she was around more. i wonder what happened to the meme ppl i used to be friends with too rip our luv. at least i have u tho. ming is too busy having a life but she's still there for us thank goofness. ngl i'm surprised ming turned out to like me enough to keep me around ik she's not like an outwardly emotional person for the most part but for a while i just assumed she sort of tolerated me lmfao that's how i am w way too many ppl it's fucking pathetic and sad but what can u do!!

irl parties suck if u don't like strangers source: me the occasional partier as long as friends are there
but even if friends are there it's like if it's not JUST me n some friends i'm like wellll that was a fun hour and a half of hiding in a corner clinging to someone i know so i'm gonna bounce~ so dw parties are a waste for ppl like us

[wildflour]

yeah idt she works still. i havent really talked to her much lately, i wish she would come back to twit cause its easier to keep up with ppl there but shes like us and has Issues so i understand why she doenst. haha ia about mingu sometimes im surprised she is one of the ppl ive hung onto. but yeah she isnt the type to tolerate anyone LOL if she hated you, you would really know it cause she would just tell you. but PSH YEAH why did she have to go and get a real life, rude....i never refollowed her on twitter cause she stopped using it anyway?? does she use it again now idk.

on the meme topic i actually worked up the courage to follow this random person on twit b/c they are a junky stan (and it took me like hours to psych myself up how sad) and turns out she actually used to go to meme too LOL. small world.

idg parties anyway like why do you want so many ppl around that you cant hang out with all of them or even know who all of them are. small gatherings where everyone stares at their computers/phones the whole time in comfortable silence with occasionally jokes ftw!

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mingu uses twit sometimes but i know she's kinda sad abt not seeing us much these days. follow her! she's just busy cuz of art school but she's still there.

omg i remember when you n lysa (sindeeluhu) followed each other n we found out she went on meme too. i knew her for like 2 yrs before we discovered this lol. too bad she's never on either :'( why are ppl leaving twit before us wtf

[wildflour]

i sent her a request *thumbs up emoji* oooohhh i remember her. sort of. i remember the name lol. i realized the other day that i have like, forgotten so many ppl i used to follow and stuff, i really hate my bad memory :( i was trying to think of all the old twitanons and stuff but i could only remember like, 1 person. flop brain. idk how people can fully give up twitter, i mean even when i was on my semi-hiatus i kept an account to follow fandom stuff cause its the easiest way to keep track of a lot of things. I GUESS THATS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU GET A REAL LIFE, u dont need tweets anymore...gross....